you know that somethings need not be said.

and that everything has changed.

nothing remains.

things simply won't be the same again.

You've touched these tired eyes of mine
And mapped my face line by line
And some how growing old feels fine
I listen close for I'm not smart
You wrap your thoughts and works of art
And there hanging on the walls of my heart.

I may not have the softest touch
I may not say the words as such
And though I may not look like much
I'm yours.

And though my edge is maybe rough
I never feel I'm quite enough
And it may not seem like very much
But I'm yours.

You healed these scars over time
And braced my soul, you loved my mind
Your the only angel in my life
The day the news came, my best friend died
My knees went weak, and you saw me cry
Say I'm still the soldier in your eyes.

I may not have the softest touch
I may not say the words as such
And though I may not look like much
I'm yours.

And though my edge is maybe rough
I never feel I'm quite enough
And it may not seem like very much
But I'm yours.

I may not have the softest touch
I may not say the words as such
And though I don't fit in that much
But I'm yours.

the script - i`m yours

"Same Mistake" - James Blunt

Saw the world turning in my sheets and once again I cannot sleep.
Walk out the door and up the street; look at the stars beneath my feet.
Remember rights that I did wrong, so here I go.
Hello, hello. There is no place I cannot go.
My mind is muddy but my heart is heavy. Does it show?
I lose the track that loses me, so here I go.
And so I sent some men to fight, and one came back at dead of night.
Said he'd seen my enemy. Said he looked just like me,
So I set out to cut myself and here I go.
I'm not calling for a second chance,
I'm screaming at the top of my voice.
Give me reason but don't give me choice.
'Cause I'll just make the same mistake again.
And maybe someday we will meet, and maybe talk and not just speak.
Don't buy the promises 'cause, there are no promises I keep.
And my reflection troubles me, so here I go.
I'm not calling for a second chance,
I'm screaming at the top of my voice.
Give me reason but don't give me choice.
'Cause I'll just make the same mistake,
I'm not calling for a second chance,
I'm screaming at the top of my voice.
Give me reason but don't give me choice.
'Cause I'll just make the same mistake again.
Saw the world turning in my sheets and once again I cannot sleep.
Walk out the door and up the street; look at the stars.
Look at the stars fall down.
And wonder where did I go wrong.

the current sidekick

recent dinner and dance

we can't stop what we have began

[currently listening to Leann Rimes - Looking Through Your Eyes]

we can't stop what we have began can't we?

much as i really want to keep this blog going on after having it for so long. it seems like a constant struggle to update esp when the words doesn't come your way.

life has been a roller-coaster as of late and indeed, it came along with surprises and disappointments along the way. work has been more or less the same except for the fact that, come first of june, i be taking a step out of my comfort zone. Going on loan to another department for 3 months. This would be the biggest step of my career i have taken, considering the fact that previous loans i had were usually at the most 1 month.

taking a step out of my comfort zone means going away from some of my colleagues whom i cherish so much and not forgetting the fact that i have actually spent 5 years at my current posting. 

time files, doesn't it. 5 years in my current job, which i had started when i was 19. Currently in the mist of hitting my mid twenties. The thought of hitting my thirties really scares me. 

meanwhile, i just make the best of what life has for me. I've been trying to make time for a lot of friends which i had not had time for over the years apart from that, will try to constantly update from now onwards. 

till then, i`m sure. each day get only get better.

Christmas was great! Thanks for the memories

Snow Patrol - Run 

I'll sing it one last time for you
Then we really have to go
You've been the only thing that's right
In all I've done

And I can barely look at you
But every single time I do
I know we'll make it anywhere
Away from here

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear

Louder louder
And we'll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say

To think I might not see those eyes
Makes it so hard not to cry
And as we say our long goodbye
I nearly do

Light up...

Slower slower
We don't have time for that
All I want is to find an easier way
To get out of our little heads

Have heart my dear
We're bound to be afraid
Even if it's just for a few days
Making up for all this mess

photos taken with classmates from the dinner after the last exams last sem.

to the moon and back

[currently listening to westlife - i'm already there]

Some of you might know that i was in bangkok when the riots and protests started. Just giving a brief insight. I have gone there for a holiday on 25th Nov. Seems that, after arriving in Bangkok. After i had left the airport. Protesters had taken over the airport. It was my initial hope that the protesters will leave by the 27th Nov which wasn't the case.

Generally, the crux of the protests were in the airport. Hence there was nothing much in the city area. But i found out that on the 26th, the protesters were throwing grenades in the city. Hence on the 27th. Together with my friend, we set out to find out ways and means of getting out of the bangkok. However, both the international airport and the old airport are all closed due to the protesters taking over the location. Subsequently the taxi driver drove us to a tour agency which we managed to get a train ticket from bangkok to hai yat which is down south of thailand. Probably estimated about 1300 km. Tickets were running out fast hence there was no choice but to take the tickets. It was a wicked 14 hours train ride. 

Seriously, given a chance, i wouldn't want to go thru it again. But due to being a victim of circumstances. I had no choice. Being in a foreign land, i did seek advice from the Singapore embassy in Bangkok as well. In the mist of the train ride, i managed to make friends with two germans, a thai, an american, an indo and also a bangladeshi. We then shared a van which we had booked to take us down to KL by van. The van ride was equally tiring. 800km and estimated about 8 hours of journey. 

Apart from that, the minute we left the train after 14 hours of ride, we boarded the van for another 8 hours of traveling. It was one of the worse 22 hours of my life but am glad that i pulled thru. During the train ride, i was thinking about the song by westlife - i`m already there. And i fully understand the bridge and could related to it. 

we may be a thousand miles apart, but i'll be with you wherever you are

and i think i am worried annie a hell lot, causing her not to have enough sleep hence i was constantly updating her about my status. She seem calm but deep down inside, i know she was really really worried and concerned.

Upon reaching KL. I was indeed thankful. Found a really nice lodging house and spent the night there. KL was an unexpected stopover but we had no choice. Managed to book an air ticket back home thereafter. I always wanted to go backpacking and somehow or rather with this experience i think the feeling is unforgettable. Having to travel and find ways and means to get to point a to point b.

I breathe a sign of relief upon returning back home and it was certainly the grace of God who have brought be back home safety. Thanks for the prayers by good friends whom i updated whilst on the journey. This experience is certainly memorable, giving me the "amazing race" feel as it was a mad rush having to get tickets as everyone was trying to leave bangkok too.

Anything could have happened whilst in bangkok. I read about the mumbai attacks and the innocent singaporean lady who was killed. Its really sad. I guess i should be indeed thankful.

Thank you all for the concern and encouraging messages.

I`m sorry for worrying all of you. - esp you =(